Today,
Ivan Tan came to visit and brought gifts to us. I hated him coming, told mom:"What? Using gifts to bribe us into a sincere apology?" It sounded mean but that's what I felt.
When he came, I was nothing admirable but a stupid teenager (I'm an adult) showing his juvenile attitude.
I did not looked to his eyes, I might say I was shy but I'm not, I'm angry and wanted to say something but all I could do was mutter soft responses. The words that I gave Ivan was:"There's no need for the presents, I don't need anything for my 21st, So what if its my 21st birthday? I don't think I could go back anymore."
It was the coldest conversation in my entire 21 years on earth, but I guess wounds that lasted for a year could be worst.
I don't know, I'm being selfish, because I have dreams placed right in front of me. I want to finish my Fairview years without distractions. I know it's not healthy, but I have no other choice.
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